NO MORE FEAR

The fear is simply you're not living with life, you're living within your mind.

Sadhguru

Such an inspirational snippet with  Sadhguru , Eckhart Tolle and Mooji. If you've got five minutes have a look.

This really resonated. The idea of fearing something that hasn't actually happened yet, so, therefore your fear is about something that does not exist. 

I was caught off guard by a bad dream the other night. I find these days that most feelings I encounter when I'm awake, I'm able to sit with. Acknowledge the feeling (not always comfortable!) before any thought is attached to it, which would give it momentum to become a fear that I believe in.

However, this dream was potent and then lingered around. It started invading my thoughts, to the point I was quite freaked out and thought I'd be faced with the monster as I ventured into another room!  

So, it's been another lesson in becoming an observer of thought and feeling without being totally consumed to the point they become a reality. AKA Insanity! ha!  

LISTEN | INSPIRED ARTWORK IN CHARCOAL

A lesson in letting creativity flow:

So, this piece kind of developed without a plan. I had a rough idea in my mind based on a dream. I tend to think in pictures, the challenge is to hold onto that picture, strengthen it in my mind so I can re-create it. 

I was thinking about meditation, how there's so much information about 'how' to meditate, how to clear your mind, stop the thought long enough to let the inspired guidance come in.
I remember being on a beach with my grandparents when I was four years old. My mama used to say to me "hold the sea shells close to your ear so you can hear the sea"
I remember it so vividly. I was so there in the moment. Looking out at the sea, listening to the sound as if it was magic. Nothing else mattered. 
Meditation was kind of easy when I was four! The world was a wonderful place and the fears and worries didn't have any longstanding grip. I was in flow of life.

With that in mind, I thought, I'm not going to try so hard. There's no pressure on this. I'm going to let the current carry me and see where I end up. 
This piece has been a turning point, which feels really wonderful. I really loosened the reigns and let go of expectation. I allowed myself to explore, without the pressure of having to create a masterpiece! 

I had created some pretty tight rules around my artwork. This realisation came when it felt so good to break them! 

For the first time in ages I got lost. Lost in the flow of creating. I was really there and present in the making of this piece.

It reminded me of why I love to create. 

TRACING THOUGHTS EXHIBITION

So Chloe Regan and I had a blast curating our own exhibition at 44AD in Bath. It was super fun and really rewarding. Just catching up and saying a few words on the idea behind the concept of the exhibition.

SUFFERING INTO CONSCIOUSNESS ORIGINAL ARTWORK

This new piece is an exciting venture - I'll explain more on the concept as I complete the painting, but I thought I'd share where I'm at with my journey as an artist.

I often plan out my paintings, sometimes to the point where all serendipity is eliminated. I know what I am going to create. I design the painting, then I paint it. 
This was enjoyable in the early days, to mock up an idea and know with confidence I could replicate a hand rendered image of it.
However, on reflection, I realised that all the creativity was happening before I'd even put pencil to paper, or brush to canvas. I'd plan every detail so meticulously, that it was becoming a little stifling.

The real 'magic' is getting lost in a creation, by being clear on the message but allowing freedom in the execution. Trusting without thinking. Thinking too much can lead to judgement and criticism - A real hindrance. 

I was thinking back to some of my very first paintings, when I hadn't even attempted to paint a portrait before. There was no expectation,  just freedom of expression. It was fun, exhilarating even. Time wouldn't exist in those moments, the painting would come alive in an unexpected way. It would own its presence on the canvas, almost choosing its own colours.

I suppose, from then, as I kept painting, some of that initial freedom got a little lost. I set an expectation for my artwork. The ego started talking to me, demanding the next painting to be better than its predecessor. 

Each month that passes, I am discovering new realisations as I grow as an artist. Whatever happens, the most important thing is to love the process, and love creating. To hold onto the essence of 'play', so that feeling somehow becomes part of the painting. 

This new painting is taking me back to the beginning. I had a vision of a concept, but I haven't planned it too tightly. I'm letting this one breath and have its own voice. I can't wait to see what it says...I'll keep you posted.

FLOW STAMP

Flow is a new section of the website selling affordable, original artworks. 
My process as an artist is to frequently create one off pieces of art that are often inspired by a fleeting thought. Some of these pieces are developed further, others finish their  journey after one visual interpretation.  

Just like a diary, or a note book, it isn't edited. It's true and raw. It isn't perfect. It's honest.  These artworks are like a diary of my journey as an artist.  Expect imperfection, character and charm.  

So the stamp has finally arrived - very satisfying!  Each original study piece will be branded on the reverse...It's the graphic designer in me! 
These works will be available to buy in the 'Flow' section